It would be easy to post these pictures and to say this was the best trip ever but I am working on being vulnerable with everyone in my life. Kauai was bittersweet. My best friend told me the day we left she was moving away, we got a call for a baby that did not go as planned on this trip and I was dealing with insecurities about life on this trip (not feeling good enough and scared of the future). The first couple of days I spent relaxing but also crying here and there. It was the first time I had really cried in two years. Meanwhile my amazing hubby was just trying to have a great vacation and enjoy his time in one of his favorite places. Thankfully the last couple of days I finally relaxed, had fun and got to see our sweet friend Alyssa. Alyssa is one of those friends that I made a decade ago almost and no matter how much time passes we pick right back up. She is pretty much our photographer for life and not only that she is like family to us. On this trip she jumped off rope swings and waterfalls with Eli when I preferred to stay in the water or watch. She ate snow cones with us and snorkeled for hours with us. Her visited cheered me up and was exactly what I needed on this trip. Then Eli cheered me up with an ATV tour where he splashed me with mud so really by the end of this Kauai trip I was reminded of little blessings among painful situation.

You know whats crazy? On this trip I had a feeling that God would give us a child soon and that this trip was a bit of spiritual warfare before what was around the corner. (Seems this always happens right before we step into what God has for us and I need to get better at trusting Him). I am sure God was looking at me saying wipe those tears away and enjoy Hawaii when I was too worried to trust Him for that week. Lesson learned. Trust Him and enjoy Hawaii.

Pictures by Alyssa Luzaich Photography